Well let me tell you the dumbest thing I’ve ever done when I was crush-ing over someone. This was my first crush. It was back in 7th grade I guess. I was eleven year old having this huge crush on a 12th grade guy. It wasn’t like he was some Adonis or something, and neither was he a popular guy. He was a geeky looking guy with glasses, pretty introvert-ish, ‘topper of the class’ - kind & cute in some way. I still don’t know what I saw in him but I was totally nuts about him. I was pretty shy back then & I never was good at talking to guys especially the ones I had crush on.
This guy, lets name him ‘R’. R & I used to travel to school by the same school bus every day. And to my luck, he used to sit right in front of my seat. I still don’t know why I felt lucky back then, because all I used to get see was the back of his head for an entire one hour journey to school & the way back & sometimes a part of his face & somehow that just used to make my day! My friend also had crush on him but not as much as I did but we used to have fun talking & giggling about him. One fine day I decided enough of ogling at him! I wanted to do something, talk to him may be! But how?? Was all I could think of for days & days together. I used to think why was I so painfully shy & couldn’t somehow talk normally to him!
Then one fine day, it was Rakshabandhan & everyone was tying everyone else Rakhis. I tied it to few people too for the heck of it. And then I looked at him. The urge to talk to him somehow hadn’t died. While I was thinking & dreaming of ways to talk to him, I suddenly got up and did something reckless! I tapped on his shoulder. He turned to me with his cute geeky smile that used to drive me nuts. I said, “Hi!”. He smiled & greeted me. Then I just didn’t know what else to say to him! & in that moment I ended up doing the worst thing one would ever do to someone they had crush on! I told him, “ Hey I wanted to tie this.”, dangling a Rakhi at his face. He smiled & let me tie him the Rakhi. I was soooo happy that I had finally managed to utter some words to him and he had smiled at me. I was all blushing & happy and then it struck me “Oh shit! What did I just do??!!!”.At what cost I achieve this! I made my ‘crush’ a ‘brother’!
Although it’s been years now, I still feel it tops my “The Dumbest Things I’ve Ever Done” list. :P
