Numb

Blank in the head

Numb with ache

I walk aimlessly in the rain

Splashed by the bus

Drenched to the bones

I trip & fall some place

Tears are streaming off my face

But it wasn’t the fall that caused me the pain

It’s just the hole in my heart that aches!

What do I do without you?

Is what I’ve been wondering all day!

Finally I reach my now empty place

Memories of you are etched across the space

Close my eyes and try to drift away

But restless ‘n sleepless is all I get

Take a swig from the bottle and drink it all away

For only it can drown my pain

And make all the memories of you go away

I’m exhausted with everything now

So hope it will help me find solace

‘Cause what do I do without you?

Is what I’ve been wondering all day!

Blinded

There for you whenever you need

But that’s not what happens when it’s me

A slave is all you want me to be

But that doesn’t even bother me

As only yours is all I want to be

But why is it the flaws are all you can see?

I’m fat, I’m ordinary

That’s what you keep telling me

I’m no diva, I agree

But why can’t you see

The only one who truly loves you is me?

My friends say that you’re using me

All I say them is it’s not like what it seems

Shielding you all the time

Excuses are all I can give

But that doesn’t stop you from walking all over me

When your eyes stray, you know it kills me

But doesn’t stop you from cheating on me

But love has me blinded

And my judgement’s so clouded

Every day is an ordeal for me

I wish it was easy for me to just leave!

That rainy day!

Wind in my hair

Raindrops on my face

How can I ever forget that rainy day?  

Fogging up the glass

Drawing up a face

Never had so much fun that way!

Holding your hand

Running barefoot in the rain

How could that just make my day?!

Twirling my hair

The dreamy look on your face

I couldn’t wipe off the smile on my face

Gazing into your eyes

Listening to you laugh

Sent me to dreams faraway

Standing under that old banyan tree

And that quick peck on my cheek

Just sent me blushing like wildfire

Although it’s been ages now

This moment’s stayed with me for long 

I just don’t know how

May be it sounds just plain to all

But to me to me it was the perfect day

How can I ever forget that rainy day?  

Perfectly Imperfect!

Perfect is what I always told to be

Imperfections were all what others could see

Being mocked isn’t something new

But seems like it’s been forever with me

Strived to be the perfection what others wanted

But the flaws were all they could still see

Comparisons have always been made around me

Why aren’t you like him or her?

All I could think was - why should I be?

When I’m so content with being me!

So I break free from all the chains of expectations

Flee into the arms of freedom

Realisation then hits me

There’s actually nothing wrong with me

I’m may be perfectly imperfect

But I’m still happy to be me! J

Reminisce

It’s been long I know

Since you’ve been gone

It’s been long I know

Since I’ve heard your voice

Even forgotten what it sounds like

It’s been long I know

Since I’ve had that feeling

The one that made me dizzy with love

‘n the one that sent me floating to the ceiling

It’s been long you know

Since someone’s truly loved me the way you did

It’s been long I know

Since you’ve put it in the attic of your mind

It’s been long I know

Since we’ve parted ways

‘n to know you’re with someone else now

It’s been long I know

To know there’s no hope or second chance

But that song on the radio last night

The same song you sang to me

Made me regret what I did

For never telling you how much I loved you

For being a fool ‘n not realising it before I lost you

The song said that things will never change for us at all

But the hell it did!

It’s been so long I know

I so wish I could let it go!